I don’t know what to title this
i just want to cry (cannot but want to) i am tired of always feeling like a piece of shit i try so hard with you, more than i have with anyone else ever and it doesn’t even matter at the end of the day i always feel like shit like a worthless piece of crap i feel like i am a cold heart-ed bitch and that for the year we dated meant nothing to you i never feel good enough, i am not pretty enough for you, smart enough, athletic enough…i want what we once had but i fucked up everything and i beat myself up over it, your the reason i cant sleep at night your the reason for a lot of things but i guess in the end it doesn’t matter to you…someone could show you this and you would probably be like shes just pmsing or she just beats herself up to much…wouldnt you beat yourself up too? i am slowly gonna give you i cannot keep doing this to myself..hanging on to something that doesnt exsist hoping hopelessly thay maybe one day you will want me again as i want you…it’ll never happen I. am. not. good. enough. i hope your happy because i am sure the hell not
